I found the URL this morning. It has been a long time since I've written anything. 2012 has been full of ups and downs, and many unexpected changes but I'm adapting to them.
Luckily I found this app in the Play Store and so far it seems to be working, at least I haven't been booted and that has made me happy. I think it will make it easier to post here often as there are a lot of things on my mind. I need this outlet to clear my head. Plus I think my critters think I've gone crazy for talking to them all the time. Lol I may be posting several times a day or go a day or so not posting at all, will have to see how things go.
I hope you will enjoy what will be posted from this day forward. Talk to you soon :)
As-salaam alaykum brothers and sisters. May Allah bring you peace and many blessings. I am a Muslim, if you are a terrorist I too am your enemy. I appreciate you stopping by, I hope you enjoy reading about my encounters. Feel free to follow my blog and/or comment on any blog post! Enjoy
Thinking Out Loud
METH
METH..... I destroy homes, tear families apart. Take your children, and thats just the start. I'm more costly than diamonds, more costly than gold. The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold. If ever you need me, I'm easily found. I live all around you, in schools and in town. I live with the rich, I live with the poor. I live down the street, and maybe next door. My power is awesome; try me and you will see. But if you do, you may never break free. Just try me once and I might let you go, but try me twice, and I'll own your soul. When I possess you you'll steal and you'll lie. You do what you have to just to get high. The crime you'll commit, for my narcotic charms, Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms. You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad. When you see their tears, you should feel sad. But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways. I take kids from parents, and parents from kids. I turn people from God, and separate friends. I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride. I'll be with you always, right by your side. You'll give up everything: your family, your home. Your friends and money, then you'll be all alone. I'll take and take, until you have nothing to give When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live. If you try me be warned this is no game, If given the chance, I'll drive you insane. I'll ravish your body; I'll control your mind. I'll own you completely; your soul will be mine. The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed, The voices you'll hear from inside our head. The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see I want you to know, these are all gifts from me. But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart, That you are mine, and we shall not part. You'll regret that you tried me, they always do But you came to me, not I to you. You knew this would happen, Many times you were told. But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold. You could have said no, and just walked away. If you could live that day over, now what would you say? I'll be your master; you will be my slave. I'll even go with you, when go to your grave. Now that you have met me, what will you do? Will you try me or not? Its all up to you. I can bring you more misery than words can tell. Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell...
Dignity Memorial - Glenn Turner Obituary: View Obituary for Glenn Turner by Dove-Witt Family Mortuary, Fountain, CO
Dignity Memorial - Glenn Turner Obituary: View Obituary for Glenn Turner by Dove-Witt Family Mortuary, Fountain, CO
In Memory of
Glenn Franklin Turner
March 11, 1935 - November 15, 2011
Obituary
Arrangements under the direction of Dove-Witt Family Mortuary, Fountain, CO.
Glenn Franklin Turner, 76 died November 15, 2011. Glenn was born on March 11, 1935 in Statesville NC to Marvin and Connie Turner. He married Salome Asteria Languit on January 9, 1960 in Honolulu, Hawaii. Together they had four children.
He proudly served in the United States Army from 1952 to 1975 and retired as a 1st Sergeant assigned at Fort Carson.
Glenn enjoyed hunting, fishing and was an avid reader, he loved spending time with his wife, children and grandchildren. Glenn will be missed very much.
He is survived by his wife Salome (Sal), three daughters and a
daughter-in-law: Marie Smith of Calhan CO, Paula Peabody of New Prague MN, Carol Carson of Colorado Springs CO and Amanda Turner also of Colorado Springs CO. Six grandchildren: Lindsey Turner, Zack Mercier, Noelle Turner, Thomas Turner, Jacelyn Peabody, Johannes Elliot and one great-grandchild Rylin Moberly. He is also survived by five sisters: Hazel Eidson of South Carolina, Ruby Josey, Joyce Herman, Alice Brotherton, and Carol Dryder, all of North Carolina.
Glenn is preceded in death by his son, Glenn Jr., a brother Arnold Turner and his parents Marvin and Connie Turner.
Visitation will be held on November 21, 2011 from 5:00 to 7:00 p.m. at Dove Witt Funeral Home, followed by a rosary at 7:00 p.m. His funeral will be held on November 23, 2011, 10:00 a.m. at St Dominic's Catholic Church, reception will follow. Glenn's ashes will be interred at Fort Logan National Cemetery.
Daddy I love you & miss you so much
In Memory of
Glenn Franklin Turner
March 11, 1935 - November 15, 2011
Obituary
Arrangements under the direction of Dove-Witt Family Mortuary, Fountain, CO.
Glenn Franklin Turner, 76 died November 15, 2011. Glenn was born on March 11, 1935 in Statesville NC to Marvin and Connie Turner. He married Salome Asteria Languit on January 9, 1960 in Honolulu, Hawaii. Together they had four children.
He proudly served in the United States Army from 1952 to 1975 and retired as a 1st Sergeant assigned at Fort Carson.
Glenn enjoyed hunting, fishing and was an avid reader, he loved spending time with his wife, children and grandchildren. Glenn will be missed very much.
He is survived by his wife Salome (Sal), three daughters and a
daughter-in-law: Marie Smith of Calhan CO, Paula Peabody of New Prague MN, Carol Carson of Colorado Springs CO and Amanda Turner also of Colorado Springs CO. Six grandchildren: Lindsey Turner, Zack Mercier, Noelle Turner, Thomas Turner, Jacelyn Peabody, Johannes Elliot and one great-grandchild Rylin Moberly. He is also survived by five sisters: Hazel Eidson of South Carolina, Ruby Josey, Joyce Herman, Alice Brotherton, and Carol Dryder, all of North Carolina.
Glenn is preceded in death by his son, Glenn Jr., a brother Arnold Turner and his parents Marvin and Connie Turner.
Visitation will be held on November 21, 2011 from 5:00 to 7:00 p.m. at Dove Witt Funeral Home, followed by a rosary at 7:00 p.m. His funeral will be held on November 23, 2011, 10:00 a.m. at St Dominic's Catholic Church, reception will follow. Glenn's ashes will be interred at Fort Logan National Cemetery.
Daddy I love you & miss you so much
R.I.P. Daddy
On November 15, 2011 I received a text message from my cousin saying, Hi, I just heard about your dad. I'm so sorry. I called my son and asked him what's wrong with Dad? My son started to break down and told me that my Dad had passed away that morning. I started crying and have been crying on and off since finding out.
I'm a bit upset that being the eldest child I was not the first one notified.... I found out through a text message! I know that when it happens you are just a mess and have to figure out what to do but I don't think it's right I wasn't called.
At any rate... I haven't seen any of the family yet. Been keeping myself distracted with packing and getting the new house ready to move into. It has helped a little but I'm still crying at the drop of a hat. I will go to the funeral but that is all, I know I couldn't handle the viewing. The funeral will be devastating enough.
Last week we lost Aunt Ellen (Uncle Gerry's wife) to Alzheimer's. Now my Dad... they say deaths happen in 3's. I'm scared to find out who will be next!
Daddy, I can't go visit you in the nursing home any more or hear your voice. I miss you and love you. I know you are with my brother, Glenn, Uncle Bob, Grandpa Languit, Aunt Ellen, and all in your family that have passed before you. I know that you don't hurt any more cuz there is no pain there. You are in a better place now and you are watching over us BUT it doesn't make it any easier to accept and live with. I will see you one day in heaven. I love you♥♥♥
I'm a bit upset that being the eldest child I was not the first one notified.... I found out through a text message! I know that when it happens you are just a mess and have to figure out what to do but I don't think it's right I wasn't called.
At any rate... I haven't seen any of the family yet. Been keeping myself distracted with packing and getting the new house ready to move into. It has helped a little but I'm still crying at the drop of a hat. I will go to the funeral but that is all, I know I couldn't handle the viewing. The funeral will be devastating enough.
Last week we lost Aunt Ellen (Uncle Gerry's wife) to Alzheimer's. Now my Dad... they say deaths happen in 3's. I'm scared to find out who will be next!
Daddy, I can't go visit you in the nursing home any more or hear your voice. I miss you and love you. I know you are with my brother, Glenn, Uncle Bob, Grandpa Languit, Aunt Ellen, and all in your family that have passed before you. I know that you don't hurt any more cuz there is no pain there. You are in a better place now and you are watching over us BUT it doesn't make it any easier to accept and live with. I will see you one day in heaven. I love you♥♥♥
One Day At a Time...
It is Oct. 23, 2011 - Donnie came home on August 23, 2011 because a warrant went active on him. We did some research to find out what S.O. was going to arrest him for, then we gathered the monies and went to Bobby Brown Bail Bonds to post his bond. When that was done I drove him to the jail and he turned himself in. It took a few hours but he was bonded out because we took care of all that prior to him turning himself in and he came home to me. Donnie was gone from July 21, 2011 to August 23, 2011 to do whatever the hell he wanted with whoever he wanted to do it with. He was not accountable for anything he did... and he did a LOT! Specially to myself and my kids. It was horrid and I thought I would not survive it. I forgave Donnie for the things that he did but to this day I still cannot forget. When I am pissed off at him everything comes out and I throw it back in his face! I am so shocked and sick to my stomach over it that I can cry uncontrollably at the drop of a hat over it all. I did things that I NEVER imagined he would do and I still am trying to understand why??? He went against every ounce of morals and values that he has and he did things with a 16 year old girl that at one time was my daughters BEST FRIEND! I can honestly say that Donnie is the ONLY man in my life that I can say honestly BROKE MY HEART! I still hurt am so scared to give all of myself to him for fear he will finish off my heart and disappear. I want so much to be able to turn back the clock to BEFORE he ever met that bitch, Bridget! She is the root of ALL evil and has truly screwed up her kids teaching them the evil things she does so well. But Karma is a bitch and it WILL catch up to her and I pray she will pay for everything she has EVER done to any one. I know since Donnie left them and came home that she has already lined up another victim to take his place.
This entire thing has changed Donnie, he isn't the same "Golden man" I married years ago. Because of all the hurt he has done to me and my kids we are also different, we will never be the same again. Hopefully it will prevent any of us from being hurt like this again. I was a very trusting person and believed everything Donnie said, it was the truth because he told me... I have since learned of a LOT of lies that I thought were truths but they are not. To this day he still tells lies and when I learn of the truth it tears more at my heart. Sometimes I wish I were dead so I wouldn't have to deal with the hurt and pain but I have kids that need me now. My kids keep me grounded, when I'm upset I think of them and it stops me from doing stupid things so they are my heroes.
I don't know if Donnie and I will make it or not... I'm taking one day at a time.
This entire thing has changed Donnie, he isn't the same "Golden man" I married years ago. Because of all the hurt he has done to me and my kids we are also different, we will never be the same again. Hopefully it will prevent any of us from being hurt like this again. I was a very trusting person and believed everything Donnie said, it was the truth because he told me... I have since learned of a LOT of lies that I thought were truths but they are not. To this day he still tells lies and when I learn of the truth it tears more at my heart. Sometimes I wish I were dead so I wouldn't have to deal with the hurt and pain but I have kids that need me now. My kids keep me grounded, when I'm upset I think of them and it stops me from doing stupid things so they are my heroes.
I don't know if Donnie and I will make it or not... I'm taking one day at a time.
Month from Hell
Today starts month two of it just being myself & my daughter. We have been close to the bottom of the barrel and are fighting like hell to claw our way out. I haven't been able to afford everything and things have been extremely tough. We have sacrificed just about everything that meant anything to us on this ranch... along with the ranch that is in foreclosure. My "dream" of living on a ranch out in the country has just about come to an end now. I've got a job finally and I have a very dear friend to thank for all the help she's given us, Chris. When things get horridly bad I am finding out who my "REAL" friends are and who I can get support from without feeling ashamed or judged. I can count them on one hand. Why is it when your are down some people are so cruel rather than be positive? I am rediscovering who I am and what I want. I will NOT settle any more, ever again! My kids and myself will be the #1 priority... if he can't put us at THE TOP then he won't be a part of our lives. I am so exhausted both mentally and emotionally, I don't even want to get out of bed any more. I wish I could turn back the clock... would I repeat the same things that lead me to this place of sorrow and grief? Love is hard... I've given my heart and soul to this man I thought was my best friend. DRUGS are EVIL! My loving, caring, handsome husband became a monster in every sense of the world to me and my kids. I don't know if I can forgive some of the things he's done but still... I love him with all my heart. I miss him horribly and want to feel his touch again. My heart is broken and I don't know if it will EVER heal from this. I don't like these feelings of hate and anger, there are not any people I can say that I honestly despise but that entire family is at the top of list. I can work through my hurt and anger at my husband eventually I think... but the trust has been destroyed. I want to start fresh, new town, new home, new life; there are too many bad memories tied to this ranch now to stay. It is a place of sorrow and that is not a home, it's a tomb that I need to break out of. My kids deserve there Mom back and we all deserve to be truly happy and feel safe in our home. I love you Donnie with every ounce of my soul and if you do get to come home and not end up in prison I will work to rebuild our life together but if you end up in prison I will not wait again. I spent many years waiting for you and justifying my relationship with you to others. I shouldn't have to do that... but my love for you is so intense, even after all these years. We deserve RESPECT from you after everything you've put us through these horrid months, NOW it is your turn to prove how much you LOVE us! I believe in my marriage vows; in sickness and in health til death do us part.
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